“I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two camps.”Genesis 32:10
Returning home to Canaan, after a long 20-year absence from his twin brother Esau, Jacob seeks God’s blessing in the face of one of his greatest fears and trials of his life. Jacob had fled to his uncle Laban’s home in Haran, which was 500 miles away from his home in Canaan. He fled with only with the clothes on his back and a staff in his hand.
Jacob’s journey represents a similar journey that we all take in life. We all cross the Jordan River with little, and eventually face our greatest foes and fears. The key to Jacob’s success was that he put his trust and confidence in God. When we stop running and finally consider the kindness and faithfulness of God, we realize that it is by God’s grace, kindness and faithfulness that we live and step forward in faith.
Sometimes the worst thing that we fear does not come to pass, but rather blessings arise out of the darkest moments of our lives, as Jacob learned firsthand in his face-to-face meeting with Esau. He feared that Esau would kill him. Instead, Esau’s embraces Jacob and weeps. This account underscores why we place our trust in the God of kindness and faithfulness who delivers us from all evil. Like Jacob, we are unworthy of God’s blessings. Like Jacob, we praise and thank the God of Jacob that He is bigger and better than all!